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Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Happy Fathers Day
In Our Hearts
We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday.
And days before that too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories.
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake.
With which we’ll never part.
God has you in his keeping.
We have you in our heart.
Happy Fathers day Dad, I just wish that you were here to see the woman I've become. I love you dad.
We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday.
And days before that too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories.
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake.
With which we’ll never part.
God has you in his keeping.
We have you in our heart.
Happy Fathers day Dad, I just wish that you were here to see the woman I've become. I love you dad.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Cycle Day 162
Just writing a quick post for now. I'm currently on CD162 and counting, I'm going insane and I'm getting pissed off, I know the whole 'lose weight and it will come talk' but that's not quite the point. This is getting seriously unfair now. My last cycle was 69 days and this one has gone double that. Because of my evil old doctor I have ZERO chance of getting any help with this problem.
According to her, women who go on the contraceptive implant or other forms don't have periods, so apparently it's ok that I don't. Unless I'm missing something (which I'm not), I'm on NO form of bc WHATSOEVER. So her theory doesn't really apply to me does it ? No. So that's why I'm stuck with the waiting game of just waiting for it to 'pop up'
I apologise for my craziness but I think I have every right to be angry and pissed off.
Cara x
I've got a couple of scheduled posts coming, but I'll start writing some more tomorrow.
According to her, women who go on the contraceptive implant or other forms don't have periods, so apparently it's ok that I don't. Unless I'm missing something (which I'm not), I'm on NO form of bc WHATSOEVER. So her theory doesn't really apply to me does it ? No. So that's why I'm stuck with the waiting game of just waiting for it to 'pop up'
I apologise for my craziness but I think I have every right to be angry and pissed off.
Cara x
I've got a couple of scheduled posts coming, but I'll start writing some more tomorrow.
Friday, June 11, 2010
My fitness programme.
Now I'm at a different gym I've got a brand new programme which i'm gonna tell you all about now :)
I do 2.4 miles of cycling.
I do 1.2 miles of walking on the treadmill in 20mins so I walk REALLY fast !
I then do 10 minutes on the cross trainer on the fat burn workout programme.
That's it for cardio but that's pretty good.
Then I do loads of weights !
30 ab crunches.
30 bicep curls.
30 dumbell lifts.
30 chest press exercises.
30 back exercises.
90 seconds on the powerplate doing Squats.
90 seconds on the powerplate doing lunges.
(the powerplate is hard work !)
That's my workout, it's really hard work but I'm hoping it all pays off soon :)
Cara x
I do 2.4 miles of cycling.
I do 1.2 miles of walking on the treadmill in 20mins so I walk REALLY fast !
I then do 10 minutes on the cross trainer on the fat burn workout programme.
That's it for cardio but that's pretty good.
Then I do loads of weights !
30 ab crunches.
30 bicep curls.
30 dumbell lifts.
30 chest press exercises.
30 back exercises.
90 seconds on the powerplate doing Squats.
90 seconds on the powerplate doing lunges.
(the powerplate is hard work !)
That's my workout, it's really hard work but I'm hoping it all pays off soon :)
Cara x
Scared to Pee
Okay gals... I'm going crazy!!!!! And I'm hoping by posting this I'll jinx myself into AF coming and I'll know for sure. That's right, she's late. I was to start on Wednesday. This is Friday. I thought I've felt her coming, but nope not yet. I've even put on pads- just in case. (It would be too embarrassing to show an investor, AF come, and have blood all over me. Better to be safe.) I am an emotional wreck. I keep going to the bathroom expecting to see her, but don't. I would be ecstatic if this were IT, but I don't want to get my hopes up. I don't want to take a test from fear of seeing a negative. Here is my list of oddities and the HOWEVERs. Help!
1- Absence of acne. Usually my forehead and chest are covered with acne right before I start. I found one pimple today on my cheek. That's all. Got nothing for that.
2- Cramps. I cramped a week to 2 weeks ago and now only have it when my bladder is full or I'm hungry. However, this has happened before. Just not so rare before AF comes.
3- Nose. I am smelling so much again! It hasn't been like this since I got the Clomid completely out of my system. However, it could be my body tricking me- again.
4- Boobs. My boobs started really hurting 2 days ago. Tight bras help thankfully. Hasn't been like this once again since I got the Clomid out of my system. However, it is a PMS symptom.
5- Late. I'm late. I'm never late. Had thick CM on CD 17. So should have ovulated on CD 19. POAS somewhere around there, both lines were the same color so ovulated like the next day I assume. On CD 36 today. Do the math, it's off. However, I was sick so it may have thrown it off. However, I remember reading in Taking Charge of Your Fertility that being sick only throws off your ovulation, not the luteal phase. If I still ovulated around the same time, doesn't that mean I should start at the same time? I am so scared to pee right now. I'm scared I'll see red and I'm scared I won't.
Help? Please?
1- Absence of acne. Usually my forehead and chest are covered with acne right before I start. I found one pimple today on my cheek. That's all. Got nothing for that.
2- Cramps. I cramped a week to 2 weeks ago and now only have it when my bladder is full or I'm hungry. However, this has happened before. Just not so rare before AF comes.
3- Nose. I am smelling so much again! It hasn't been like this since I got the Clomid completely out of my system. However, it could be my body tricking me- again.
4- Boobs. My boobs started really hurting 2 days ago. Tight bras help thankfully. Hasn't been like this once again since I got the Clomid out of my system. However, it is a PMS symptom.
5- Late. I'm late. I'm never late. Had thick CM on CD 17. So should have ovulated on CD 19. POAS somewhere around there, both lines were the same color so ovulated like the next day I assume. On CD 36 today. Do the math, it's off. However, I was sick so it may have thrown it off. However, I remember reading in Taking Charge of Your Fertility that being sick only throws off your ovulation, not the luteal phase. If I still ovulated around the same time, doesn't that mean I should start at the same time? I am so scared to pee right now. I'm scared I'll see red and I'm scared I won't.
Help? Please?
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Cycle Update
I haven't updated in a while so I thought I should do that. I'm on CD 33- supposed to be CD 1. The day still isn't over, so we'll see. Although my cycles are fairly regular, I hate that they are so long. I had strep throat this month, so my cycle's probably all thrown off. I did actually POAS earlier in the month and it appears I actually did ovulate- being sick, stressed, and all. I figured since we haven't gotten pregnant naturally I didn't need to worry when I started taking penicillin and vicodin. But now I'm like- I hope we're okay! Funny thing is that the penicillin said that it would make birth control ineffective. Now we haven't been on BC in forever it seems, so didn't have to worry. But wouldn't that be funny if that's what worked? Penicillin & Vicodin to get pregnant! I'll let you know.
But really, I am trying not to get my hopes up in any way. Yes, I had cramping a week ago and only very very little since then (which I usually cramp way bad a day or 2 before hand). And yes I've had very little acne this cycle. And yes I feel like an emotional wreck. But I'm not thinking about it. Look- I've thought myself up a cramp! See? Not prego. *Maybe the reverse psychology will work...*
On another note- my brother-in-law/sister-in-law who got married in April went off birth control when it made her hormonally crazy and found out they are accidentally pregnant. By the way- nobody steals my crown of hormonally crazy in this family! (I guess we'll see about that with her pregnant...) So that's been a bit of an adjustment. I'm going to try to write about it *very delicately* on my blog. I've got some thoughts, but I just need to present them carefully since my Mother-in-law reads it. But I really do feel that they need to be said- just put in the thoughtful manner it needs. Any suggestions would be great. But check it out when I'm done- I'll tweet it, so keep an eye out.
Brittany
But really, I am trying not to get my hopes up in any way. Yes, I had cramping a week ago and only very very little since then (which I usually cramp way bad a day or 2 before hand). And yes I've had very little acne this cycle. And yes I feel like an emotional wreck. But I'm not thinking about it. Look- I've thought myself up a cramp! See? Not prego. *Maybe the reverse psychology will work...*
On another note- my brother-in-law/sister-in-law who got married in April went off birth control when it made her hormonally crazy and found out they are accidentally pregnant. By the way- nobody steals my crown of hormonally crazy in this family! (I guess we'll see about that with her pregnant...) So that's been a bit of an adjustment. I'm going to try to write about it *very delicately* on my blog. I've got some thoughts, but I just need to present them carefully since my Mother-in-law reads it. But I really do feel that they need to be said- just put in the thoughtful manner it needs. Any suggestions would be great. But check it out when I'm done- I'll tweet it, so keep an eye out.
Brittany
Friday, June 4, 2010
Testing After Recurrent Miscarriage
OK, ladies. I'm posting this for 2 reasons. 1) I know there are several of you that have experience with this testing and may be able to either decipher some of it for me and/or have opinions on what's on it and what's missing, from your experience, and 2) Some of you who haven't had this experience might be curious about it.
I received my lab order today for all the testing the RE wants me to do in an effort to find the cause of my two early miscarriages. The weirdest part to me is that it includes an HSG (hysterosalpingogram), but I have a good one on file from a year and a half ago. Why they want another one is going on my list of questions to ask when I call them next week. (I can't take the tests for 6 weeks from the miscarriage, so I have time.)
Here are the others:
Blood Tests
CBC with differential (automated)
Comprehensive metabolic panel (aka Chem 20 panel)
Prolactin (fasting)
TSH
Antithrombin III Activity
Cardiolipin AB Wireflex to ID titer (aka Anticardiolipin Ab (IgG/IgM)
Factor II activity (prothrombin 20210A mutation)
Factor V (Leiden) Mutation
Fasting Homocysteine level, Plasma
Lupus Anticoagulant Evaluation
Phosphatidylserine antibodies (aka AntiPhosphoSerine Ab (IgG/IgM))
Plasminogen Activator Inhib (PAI-1)
Protein C-Activity
Protein S-Activity
Cervical Cultures
Routine aerobic (I am wondering what this is, because it's so vague-sounding)
Mycoplasma/Ureaplasma
That pretty much covers it. Please, share any thoughts. And thanks. =)
I received my lab order today for all the testing the RE wants me to do in an effort to find the cause of my two early miscarriages. The weirdest part to me is that it includes an HSG (hysterosalpingogram), but I have a good one on file from a year and a half ago. Why they want another one is going on my list of questions to ask when I call them next week. (I can't take the tests for 6 weeks from the miscarriage, so I have time.)
Here are the others:
Blood Tests
CBC with differential (automated)
Comprehensive metabolic panel (aka Chem 20 panel)
Prolactin (fasting)
TSH
Antithrombin III Activity
Cardiolipin AB Wireflex to ID titer (aka Anticardiolipin Ab (IgG/IgM)
Factor II activity (prothrombin 20210A mutation)
Factor V (Leiden) Mutation
Fasting Homocysteine level, Plasma
Lupus Anticoagulant Evaluation
Phosphatidylserine antibodies (aka AntiPhosphoSerine Ab (IgG/IgM))
Plasminogen Activator Inhib (PAI-1)
Protein C-Activity
Protein S-Activity
Cervical Cultures
Routine aerobic (I am wondering what this is, because it's so vague-sounding)
Mycoplasma/Ureaplasma
That pretty much covers it. Please, share any thoughts. And thanks. =)
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Starting to make this more real...
So I decided that even though I dont have insurance, I am going to start goign to all these visits anyway. I found an OB GYN that hopefully wont tell me Im just fat!! And I found an RE that seems like theyll be great! I am going to make this my year for a baby! I cant wait until Matt and I can finally say hey! We are a family! I need to ask a ? I have always said I wanted more than one child. But after everything I have struggled for, I would settle for one. Is it selfish to give up after one child??
Trying Tiff <3
Trying Tiff <3
Monday, May 31, 2010
Second Miscarriage
This is going to be a little long...
So, obviously I've been tweeting about what's been going on with me a ton, but I know not everyone can keep up with everything on there, and since I haven't really posted about it on my own blog yet, I figured I should give an update on here. Two and a half weeks ago, we found out that our baby hadn't grown in the two weeks before, and her heartbeat was gone. So, this was another loss. She was only at about 6.5 weeks of growth in size, and was really not formed properly. I was on progesterone just like last time, even though this was a natural pregnancy. So I stopped the prog. and waited.
Two weeks later, after a litle spotting and some light cramps, nothing was moving along, so I took the misoprostol Rx my doc gave me. That was Friday afternoon. By Sat morning I had passed a lot of tissue, and an ultrasound on Sunday morning confirmed she was gone. The misoprostol was quite a bit more painful than I remember my un-medicated miscarriage in January being. I am still having painful cramps from it here and there, but they go away with 2 advil now, and everything is basically like having my period now. So, the worst of the physical part is over.
We just got the results back from blood testing for chromosomal abnormalities in DH and I, and we're both normal. I have an order from the RE coming in the mail for about 6 weeks from now to do all the numerous other tests to try and find a cause for my miscarriages. However, based on what she sees as a lack of symptoms, history, or signs at age 34 that I have any of the possible problems, the RE is not confident that we're going to find anything. Basically, I'm too healthy. lol. When the order gets here, I'll tell all y'all what's on it (if I can read it-lol).
So my approach now will be to attack what potential Lifestyle and Environmental Factors I can. (Including losing 15-20 lbs.) I plan on posting all about these in my personal blog, but we'll see if I can get through the wall that has been preventing me from posting there.
Thanks for reading, and for all the support, you guys.
So, obviously I've been tweeting about what's been going on with me a ton, but I know not everyone can keep up with everything on there, and since I haven't really posted about it on my own blog yet, I figured I should give an update on here. Two and a half weeks ago, we found out that our baby hadn't grown in the two weeks before, and her heartbeat was gone. So, this was another loss. She was only at about 6.5 weeks of growth in size, and was really not formed properly. I was on progesterone just like last time, even though this was a natural pregnancy. So I stopped the prog. and waited.
Two weeks later, after a litle spotting and some light cramps, nothing was moving along, so I took the misoprostol Rx my doc gave me. That was Friday afternoon. By Sat morning I had passed a lot of tissue, and an ultrasound on Sunday morning confirmed she was gone. The misoprostol was quite a bit more painful than I remember my un-medicated miscarriage in January being. I am still having painful cramps from it here and there, but they go away with 2 advil now, and everything is basically like having my period now. So, the worst of the physical part is over.
We just got the results back from blood testing for chromosomal abnormalities in DH and I, and we're both normal. I have an order from the RE coming in the mail for about 6 weeks from now to do all the numerous other tests to try and find a cause for my miscarriages. However, based on what she sees as a lack of symptoms, history, or signs at age 34 that I have any of the possible problems, the RE is not confident that we're going to find anything. Basically, I'm too healthy. lol. When the order gets here, I'll tell all y'all what's on it (if I can read it-lol).
So my approach now will be to attack what potential Lifestyle and Environmental Factors I can. (Including losing 15-20 lbs.) I plan on posting all about these in my personal blog, but we'll see if I can get through the wall that has been preventing me from posting there.
Thanks for reading, and for all the support, you guys.
Sorrow and loss.
Today I found out that Courtney one of my friends on Twitter lost her baby today.
I want her to know how sorry I am, her baby grew wings far to soon.
It's not Friday but I found this quote and I thought it would be nice to coinside with this post.
'An angel opened the book of life and wrote down my baby's birth,
Then she whispered as she closed the book, "Too beautiful for earth."
Cara x
I want her to know how sorry I am, her baby grew wings far to soon.
It's not Friday but I found this quote and I thought it would be nice to coinside with this post.
'An angel opened the book of life and wrote down my baby's birth,
Then she whispered as she closed the book, "Too beautiful for earth."
Cara x
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
RE Appt
Just thought I'd do an update on here.
Despite my husband's low sperm count/morphology, my RE has put me on clomid, due to my late/irregular ovulation.
So, I shall be joining the clomid train with y'all that are on it.
I've taken it for two cycles before and it makes me want to jump off a cliff when AF arrives. That or rip my uterus out and just say "SCREW IT!"
Despite my husband's low sperm count/morphology, my RE has put me on clomid, due to my late/irregular ovulation.
So, I shall be joining the clomid train with y'all that are on it.
I've taken it for two cycles before and it makes me want to jump off a cliff when AF arrives. That or rip my uterus out and just say "SCREW IT!"
Quick catch up
I can't believe it's been 2 weeks since my last post ! I've written a few but I've either not been able to post them or they have been really miserable. Hopefully good stuff will pop back into my head !
Still no sign of AF, I'm CD139 so getting a bit pissed off with it now !
On Twitter the other day I was saying about the 15yr old girl I know who's getting induced this week because her baby is to small because of cocaine and alcohol. Well the other night when I went out (and got heavily intoxicated!!) I saw her dressed in this weird tutu fancy dress outfit, she was drunk and I mean really drunk. When I see things like this i get upset because people like her don't deserve kids.
Ok rant over, I'm gonna start blogging better and I'm gonna be starting a Topic Of The Week thing where I'm basically talking about a topic of interest :)
I will speak to you all very soon, I promise I will be a better blogger :)
Cara x
Still no sign of AF, I'm CD139 so getting a bit pissed off with it now !
On Twitter the other day I was saying about the 15yr old girl I know who's getting induced this week because her baby is to small because of cocaine and alcohol. Well the other night when I went out (and got heavily intoxicated!!) I saw her dressed in this weird tutu fancy dress outfit, she was drunk and I mean really drunk. When I see things like this i get upset because people like her don't deserve kids.
Ok rant over, I'm gonna start blogging better and I'm gonna be starting a Topic Of The Week thing where I'm basically talking about a topic of interest :)
I will speak to you all very soon, I promise I will be a better blogger :)
Cara x
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
:-) hi ladies
Hi Ladies
Thanks so much for the warm welcome. My name is Celeste. I have married to my lovely husband for almost 2 years. We were married on 9/6/08. I have been TTC ever since our wedding night. Feb2010, I went to a fertility specialist who looked at our history and said, “It’s probably bad timing” Little did I know going into my HSG test 2/12/2010, I was finally going to have an answer as to why we were not getting pregnant. MY TUBES WERE BLOCKED. :-(
She said one of my tubes is tangled and the other one is really bad. There’s a small percentage of getting pregnant and if I did get pregnant it would be in my tubes. I started IVF in May, with the BCP and Lupron. When my follicles were getting big and I was a day or two away from my egg retrieval. I OvulatedL. (1-1.5% of people ovulate on lupron) So I will start my second journey of IVF in July. I have found being on twitter, facebook and youtube to be a very therapeutic place for me because you ladies know exactly what I am feeling. Thanks again for the warm welcomeJ
On a side note. You may hear me tweeting or talking about kids. My aunt died 3/15/10 of breast cancer and my husband and I took in her two boy’s ages 7 and 5.
You can also find me:
http://www.youtube.com/viciere (Video Blog)
http://myrandomositythoughts.com/(Online diary)
Be.encouraged@live.com (Facebook name)
Thanks
Thanks so much for the warm welcome. My name is Celeste. I have married to my lovely husband for almost 2 years. We were married on 9/6/08. I have been TTC ever since our wedding night. Feb2010, I went to a fertility specialist who looked at our history and said, “It’s probably bad timing” Little did I know going into my HSG test 2/12/2010, I was finally going to have an answer as to why we were not getting pregnant. MY TUBES WERE BLOCKED. :-(
She said one of my tubes is tangled and the other one is really bad. There’s a small percentage of getting pregnant and if I did get pregnant it would be in my tubes. I started IVF in May, with the BCP and Lupron. When my follicles were getting big and I was a day or two away from my egg retrieval. I OvulatedL. (1-1.5% of people ovulate on lupron) So I will start my second journey of IVF in July. I have found being on twitter, facebook and youtube to be a very therapeutic place for me because you ladies know exactly what I am feeling. Thanks again for the warm welcomeJ
On a side note. You may hear me tweeting or talking about kids. My aunt died 3/15/10 of breast cancer and my husband and I took in her two boy’s ages 7 and 5.
You can also find me:
http://www.youtube.com/viciere (Video Blog)
http://myrandomositythoughts.com/(Online diary)
Be.encouraged@live.com (Facebook name)
Thanks
Monday, May 24, 2010
Just Checking in
Though i have been blogging/twittering for awhile now, I have yet to post on this blog.... I know, I know. Slacker! Well for those of you who do not know me, I am Tiffany, TTC 2.5 years! My husband is fastly approaching 30 and though I am still young, my goal in life was to have 5 children by 25.....uhm not gonna happen as I am 22 with 0! I have been married to Matt since I was 19 and we met when I was 16. He is 27. Through our journey, the doctor I was seeing said I was too young for a formal diagnosis, that I was just fat! Their answer was birth control to regulate....uhm hello?! Isnt the purpose of bc to prevent pregnancy??!?! I have been having 90+ day cycles since 2008. In 2010, I have had four consecutive cycles since February!! Exciting, yea I know! The first few were 34 day cycles, but the last one was EXACTLY 28 DAYS!! WOOT WOOT! Yes! So things may be working out afterall! Baby dust for all!!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Frustrated
Okay, on CD 12 and getting frustrated. I have been so sick for the past week and through out the first 6 days of my cycle. Migraines (which I never experienced until this week), nausea, exhaustion- I can't even think right. Of course, everybody asks- Are you sure you're not pregnant? Of course I'm not! I did just have my period. But maybe it was something else? Right? I keep wondering, but that would be impossible. Right? The body just doesn't work that way. But I've been having cramps early and horrible nausea- even when the headache isn't really there. I'm probably just sick, but all these questions of "are you sure?" is making me think "maybe my body is just doing something funny, wouldn't be the first time- I mean it does keep me from getting pregnant, what if it's pulling another prank?"
Stupid what if questions. And I don't have the guts to POAS and see a BFN when I'm 98% I'm not pregnant. Oh, I need to add to my list of symptoms- HOT FLASHES! I only got those while on Clomid. But I'm having them bad now. Grrr... Need sanity! Help! Please! Talk me down from my insane ledge!
Stupid what if questions. And I don't have the guts to POAS and see a BFN when I'm 98% I'm not pregnant. Oh, I need to add to my list of symptoms- HOT FLASHES! I only got those while on Clomid. But I'm having them bad now. Grrr... Need sanity! Help! Please! Talk me down from my insane ledge!
