Maybe, maybe not.

I'm on day 27 in my cycle. I calculated that this cycle will be approximately 35 days, give or take (and that's a reallllly rough estimate).

So technically, according to what I think, I should be in the 2ww. I did just start taking Fertility Blend this cycle, so I'm hoping (crossing fingers and toes and anything else that can be crossed) that I'll have a "normal" length of a cycle.

I didn't really track anything this month besides the length of my cycle because I wanted to give myself a good month of taking these vitamins before I started my regime. You know the drill: basal temps, opk's, the whole nine yards.

I want to be so hopeful, but really when it comes down to it, I'm not so much. I don't think this is going to happen naturally for us.

My hubby is taking the male version of Fertility Blend. He seems to think that this is going to work. He also seems to think that if we just BD more it'll happen.

I hate to be so pessimistic, but really? It's been nearly 6 years since I threw away the BC pills and we should have had an "Oops" by now. Not to mention, I tried clomid for a few months and that didn't work either.

I suppose in all reality, I'm doing this for the next five months just to "prove" to him that there is really something wrong. I'm no longer in denial that there's something wrong with one of us. I know something isn't right.

I just wish he would start to see it that way too.

Check in- 2ww

Just want to pop in do my cycle update. Today I am 10dpo, nearing the end of the 2ww and trying to stay both positive and rational at the same time (no easy feat) At this point I start feeling like the 2ww will never end and that the clock is doing this. My LP is usually 12 days, 13 at the most, so it shouldn't be long until I know something.

Despite my promises to myself to stop temping during 2ww, I've done it anyway. Yesterday (9dpo) I had a HUGE drop and felt pretty negative but today temps are right back to where they were and I have not had the same cramping I usually do at this point. Although I did have a very brief sharp pain this morning in the center of my lower abdomen- right above pubic bone. Good signs? I dunno, hmmm. Trying not to get carried away but keeping my fingers crossed!


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Intro & Cycle Check In

Well I am officially done slacking on writing my intro/cycle update for the ttchappyhour blog! I want to start by again thanking Kate and Roxanne for starting this blog! I love being able to get caught up on where everyone is and get to know know some of the lovely ladies of ttc happy hour a little better! You two rock!

To introduce myself, my name is Holly and I recently turned 27. I have been married to Chad (also 27) for nearly 3 years (together for 8) and we have been TTC since April/May 2007. I have my own blog here, please feel free to follow and I'll also add you to my page! I have been diagnosed with a blocked fallopian tube on my left side, all other fertility tests have come back with good results. I am on round 3 of 50mg Clomid to try and increase chances of Oing on my right "good" side. After this month if I'm not preggo I will be going back to the Dr to discuss additional treatment options including IUI, laproscopy etc.

Today is CD 22 and I am 4dpo so just barely started my 2ww. I always hate this part. I was telling DH a few weeks ago how great the week between AF and O is. It's the only time all month when my life and emotions aren't 100% ruled by TTC. No sex on demand, no bleeding, no clomid, I can have a glass of wine if I want. It's one of the nice things about having slightly longer cycles that I have more time like that for myself each month. But alas that time is over. I have done the opks, the constant "fertile window" sex ritual and am now trying to patiently wait out my 2ww. It's realy early so I don't have any exciting symptoms or anything and I am trying to ignore any that may crop up anyway since they're so misleading. Well, trying to ignore symotoms. I couldn't help but notice twingy like cramps in my uterus last night (I think I have been getting them every month on clomid at 3dpo) and today I have had tons of CM (sorry if TMI) Ha! when I swear not to pay attention to these things it's like my body kicks into overdrive and forces me to notice!

I just so want this month to be it! I am so afraid of facing the possibility of having a hydrosalpinx and having to have surgery to remove/treat it. I am trying to stay positive but after some extreme but short lived pain the day before O I am starting to get paranoid that it was my tube causing it and I've wasted the past few months on Clomid without having had surgery. I mean I don't want to have a lap if I don't have to but if this tube is sabotaging my ability to get pregnant, I want the damn thing out!

I will keep you posted as my 2ww goes (drags) on. Please keep your fingers crossed for me!


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