I Can't Stop Crying...

So I am pretty much upset, very upset. Let me explain, long story short. 2 of my ex-friends (who are best Friends) when I was pregnant in April 07, they both wished for me to miscarry, few days later I did. They both wanted a baby and to TTC but ones Husband was deployed and other her Husband didn't want Kids yet. Well one has a 8 month old boy and the other a 6 month old girl. And I just found out, like 20 minutes ago, the one with the 6 month girl is 5 weeks pregnant, wasn't even trying for her 2nd. I don't know why I let this hurt me and bring me down. Well maybe because they both told me they hope I miscarry and here they are a mommy and pregnant with 2nd. I'd never wish harm to a baby or anyone(even if they hurt me, I'm not like that) But I don't think either of them deserve a baby, let alone 2. And I've been TTC for 3 years and can't conceive naturally and still no baby, yes there's a great chance I'm pregnant, but this still upsets me and I bawled my eyes out when I saw... These 2 girls are both 20. One tried like 6 months, the other tried about a year. Even tho they are far from my Friend and I would never talk to them again I'm happy for them, but they do not deserve children. That may sound really mean but if you only knew what these 2 girls put me thru. They still stalk me and I hope they never find my Blog. Sigh. Am I wrong to be so upset about the news that she's pregnant, with yet her 2nd when her baby is only 6 months old. Sighs. Maybe I am over reacting due to all the hormones... I just wanna stop crying and it finally be MY turn to be a mommy, to a baby here on earth with me...